February 2011
28 posts
A Reminder
Dear Whoever This May Concern,
You are special. More special than you think you are. You deserve whatever it is that makes you happy and don’t let anyone get in your way of accomplishing that. You deserve it. Never forget that. You are beautiful and loved. Follow your dreams and remember that people are also going through life’s battles, so pass along a nice word every once in a...
January 2011
52 posts
Sleep Well
Dear Bruce,
I know I can’t be what you want. I know that I’m not what you need. We weren’t together, if you can even call it that, for very long. But that year and a half had some of the happiest times in my life. I don’t care that you don’t love me anymore. I’m getting a lot better about not trying to contact you. Because you asked me not to. It’s was not the...
Mother and Daughter
Mom,
I’m sorry for our relationship over the past 16 years. The arguing, the fighting, the battles. I want it to end before it’s too late to sit down and say “I love you” with no questions asked and no uneasy feelings between us. The way we treat each other is unbelievable. Between my lack of communication and honesty, and your lack of understanding and compassion, we have...
Too Late
Dear Chris,
I’m sorry. I’m sorry for what I did and how I reacted to what you did. I’m sorry for the drugs, I’m sorry for the alcohol, I’m sorry for the days you’ve lost, I’m sorry for the days you’ll never get back when you were with us. I’m sorry I brought you down with me. I’m sorry I made everyone believe you were the one with all the problems when really it was me. I’m sorry you...
He Has Our Nose
Dear Dad,
All I ever wanted was to make you proud. I went to college ready to be the star that we all thought I would be. I know grades were big to you and I understand why now. I am sorry I got lost in this world and I am sorry I lied to you. Every time you asked me how I was doing I could never bring myself to tell you the truth because I couldn’t admit to myself how bad I was ruining my...
Active Friends
Dear Davika,
When I walk outside, I think of you and when we used to play tennis. I also think of when we used nails to make a fort. I also remember when we had a smoothie stand with Audrey and we made four quarters. I miss you a lot.
Love,
Zoe, age 7
Begging To know you
Dear family,
I cried yesterday.
I didn’t cry for happiness but for sadness.
I never expected to be unimportant to you guys.
You tell me you love me but those are just words
They don’t mean anything anymore to me.
Everyday another tear, another cut and another me.
I keep hoping for light in my life,
I keep wishing that all my darkness was light.
I know that I don’t have the...
My Beautiful Secret
Dear Noelle,
Noelle, you’re my best friend and I have loved you since the day I first saw you. You’re the loveliest thing I know of. You’re like nutella on crackers, or the smell of dawn in the middle of the summer. When we talk you’re like my sister, and when we play you’re like the brother I never had. You make me laugh like no one else can and you make me...
Weird Little Cousin
Dear Jason,
I miss you so much. Sometimes it seems silly, considering that in the last years of your life we were out of touch. You and I lived so far apart, and I was married and having babies, and you were doing your thing.
My biggest regret is that the last time we spoke, it was a very brief conversation, and I can’t even remember if I told you that I loved you or not.
When I heard that...
Not Worth It
Dear Friends,
I wish the best to all of you. I wish that you all could grow out of the stages you have been going through.
I wish that you would remember that there is still good in life, and that not everything revolves around drugs and partying. I wish you could remember all the fun times we had before we met the people that brought us into all this. I wish I could go back and say no to...
Disconnected
SB,
It has been almost two years since you left us and I want to tell you that I’m sorry. I’m sorry that i never called you back three days before you died. I’m sorry I disconnected from you because I didn’t agree with the choices that you made. I’m sorry that our friendship crumbled. But I want you to know that I wanted to be there for you. It was just too hard to watch...
I Meant It
Dear Bryan,
I wish you knew how much I really do love you. I also wish you knew how much it hurts that we’ve been together for a year and a half yet you won’t talk about a future with me. You used to call me your soulmate, your princess. I guess you, for some reason, have decided that I’m not anymore. You say that you love me with all your heart, but you don’t show it. If...
I Meant It
Dear Bryan,
I wish you knew how much I really do love you. I also wish you knew how much it hurts that we’ve been together for a year and a half yet you won’t talk about a future with me. You used to call me your soulmate, your princess. I guess you, for some reason, have decided that I’m not anymore. You say that you love me with all your heart, but you don’t show it. If...
Power to be good
Mr. D,
Thank you. Thank you so much for being such an amazing teacher. Whenever I walk into your room, I know that I will be able to laugh in a matter of minutes. No matter how badly my day is going or how stressed I am, I know that your class can always cheer me up. Even when you insist on teaching us the material, you make it fun, and we barely realize that we are actually learning. And when...
Where's my Father?
Father, I suppose it’s just that I finally listen to the therapist and write you a letter. I remember when I first started going to therapy. It was all because of you. I remember when you called me a little girl for going, and mom fighting with you about it. Making me feel bad about my weight, and saying all the sickness was in my head. You don’t seem to really understand what...
Where's my Father?
Father, I suppose it’s just that I finally listen to the therapist and write you a letter. I remember when I first started going to therapy. It was all because of you. I remember when you called me a little girl for going, and mom fighting with you about it. Making me feel bad about my weight, and saying all the sickness was in my head. You don’t seem to really understand what...
Thinking of You
Dear Henry,
Today I found out you have leukemia.
I know that I don’t know you too well, that you live across the country, and you are ten years older than me, but I love you so much.
Daddy told me a few days ago that you haven’t been feeling well. I thought it was just one of Dad’s attempts at making conversation. I asked what was wrong and he just said that you had to go to the...
Thinking of You
Dear Henry,
Today I found out you have leukemia.
I know that I don’t know you too well, that you live across the country, and you are ten years older than me, but I love you so much.
Daddy told me a few days ago that you haven’t been feeling well. I thought it was just one of Dad’s attempts at making conversation. I asked what was wrong and he just said that you had to go to the...
Take It Easy On Us
Dear Daddy, I know you have done lots of stupid things, things you wish you could take back. We all have. Especially me. When I said those hurtful things, I didn’t mean to make you cry, I promise. No matter what you would have said, you would have made me happy. Just the sound of your voice would turn my whole day around. Your my hero, Daddy. You didn’t have the best life but you...
Take It Easy On Us
Dear Daddy, I know you have done lots of stupid things, things you wish you could take back. We all have. Especially me. When I said those hurtful things, I didn’t mean to make you cry, I promise. No matter what you would have said, you would have made me happy. Just the sound of your voice would turn my whole day around. Your my hero, Daddy. You didn’t have the best life but you...
I am Still Here
You,
I wrote about it in 10 hidden angsty poems. I have relived it in a thousand famous emo songs. Then I found this site when reading a news article. I thought, if nowhere else, I could say it here. Anonymously. Cowardly? But I have typed and then hit Back Space so many times … and again. I am still here and one day I will be strong. I think I’ll tell you then. Thirty...
I am Still Here
You,
I wrote about it in 10 hidden angsty poems. I have relived it in a thousand famous emo songs. Then I found this site when reading a news article. I thought, if nowhere else, I could say it here. Anonymously. Cowardly? But I have typed and then hit Back Space so many times … and again. I am still here and one day I will be strong. I think I’ll tell you then. Thirty...
Back in Time
To my lost love,
If I could really send this to you, this is what I would want you to know. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that 32 years ago, I let you slip away. I wish things had been different. Circumstances got in the way of us but I loved you so very much. I don’t know if you knew how hard it was for me when you left to go to college. If only we could go back in time. But since we...
Back in Time
To my lost love,
If I could really send this to you, this is what I would want you to know. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that 32 years ago, I let you slip away. I wish things had been different. Circumstances got in the way of us but I loved you so very much. I don’t know if you knew how hard it was for me when you left to go to college. If only we could go back in time. But since we...
I Need to Know
Dear God, Please come save me. Why haven’t you saved me? I thought you loved everyone. Do you know that I’ve wanted you more than anything ever? I cry when other people pray, or when I see churches crowded, or when I see plays about you. Why didn’t you come for me? I cried for you. I sobbed for you. You didn’t save me, you never came for me. I’m afraid to ask for...
I Need to Know
Dear God, Please come save me. Why haven’t you saved me? I thought you loved everyone. Do you know that I’ve wanted you more than anything ever? I cry when other people pray, or when I see churches crowded, or when I see plays about you. Why didn’t you come for me? I cried for you. I sobbed for you. You didn’t save me, you never came for me. I’m afraid to ask for...
A Lovely Little Mess
Heather, It feels like its been so long. Maybe I’m just living too fast. I woke up from a dream last night and missed you all over again. You were the first girl I loved. I remember driving to St. Louis and walking the streets of the city at night. A beautiful night with a more than beautiful girl. I often wonder what I could have done to change things. To make them like what you said they...
A Lovely Little Mess
Heather, It feels like it’s been so long. Maybe I’m just living too fast. I woke up from a dream last night and missed you all over again. You were the first girl I loved. I remember driving to St. Louis and walking the streets of the city at night. A beautiful night with a more than beautiful girl. I often wonder what I could have done to change things. To make them like what you...
The Right Person
Dear Mommy & Daddy, You say that you two love each other, and maybe you do in some way, but I don’t think you two have a healthy marriage. I don’t think you guys married the right person. Not that either of you are bad people or parents, I just don’t think you were “the one(s)” for each other. You two don’t treat each other with as much respect as you...
The Right Person
Dear Mommy & Daddy, You say that you two love each other, and maybe you do in some way, but I don’t think you two have a healthy marriage. I don’t think you guys married the right person. Not that either of you are bad people or parents, I just don’t think you were “the one(s)” for each other. You two don’t treat each other with as much respect as you...
The Little Things
Dear Diana,
Diana, you make the best cinnamon toast in the world. Thank you for letting me come over.
Love,
Ethan, age 7
The Little Things
Dear Diana,
Diana, you make the best cinnamon toast in the world. Thank you for letting me come over.
Love,
Ethan, age 7
Try and Understand
My dearest father,
I know that we never really saw eye to eye while I was growing up and that I did a lot of things to hurt you, both intentional and unintentional, which to this day I am very sorry for. I wish I could have the chance to take them back or correct. But please know I am truly sorry for the pain that I caused you.
I have finally come to understand why you had such a hard time dealing...
Try and Understand
My dearest father,
I know that we never really saw eye to eye while I was growing up and that I did a lot of things to hurt you, both intentional and unintentional, which to this day I am very sorry for. I wish I could have the chance to take them back or correct. But please know I am truly sorry for the pain that I caused you.
I have finally come to understand why you had such a hard time dealing...
Live Rent Free
To the older man who raped me when I was a young girl,
The shame is yours. I have forgiven myself, but I will never forgive you. “Hanging onto resentment is letting someone you despise live rent free in your head.” Esther Lederer. The fact that I do not let this incident define my life does not excuse your actions.
Just because I could imitate a whore doesn’t mean I was one. Why didn’t you tell...
Live Rent Free
To the older man who raped me when I was a young girl,
The shame is yours. I have forgiven myself, but I will never forgive you. “Hanging onto resentment is letting someone you despise live rent free in your head.” Esther Lederer. The fact that I do not let this incident define my life does not excuse your actions.
Just because I could imitate a whore doesn’t mean I was one. Why didn’t you tell...
An Awesome Son
To my father’s dad,
I never got the chance to meet you because you died when my dad was only three. I really wish you were alive so I could see what kind of person you would have been. You have an awesome son. He is the best dad anyone could ever ask for. He is smart, caring, and he is always there. He puts his family first. Always. I always wonder what you were like. It crosses my mind...
An Awesome Son
To my father’s dad,
I never got the chance to meet you because you died when my dad was only three. I really wish you were alive so I could see what kind of person you would have been. You have an awesome son. He is the best dad anyone could ever ask for. He is smart, caring, and he is always there. He puts his family first. Always. I always wonder what you were like. It crosses my mind...
One Day Soon
Dear Ashleigh,
It has been three years now that you have not lived with me. I wake up every morning and go to bed every night crying because you are not there and it is because of me and what I did. I never thought that I would fall into such a deep place in the world after having a beautiful daughter like you. I waited for God to send you to me for 15 years of trying. You were a big surprise and...
One Day Soon
Dear Ashleigh,
It has been three years now that you have not lived with me. I wake up every morning and go to bed every night crying because you are not there and it is because of me and what I did. I never thought that I would fall into such a deep place in the world after having a beautiful daughter like you. I waited for God to send you to me for 15 years of trying. You were a big surprise and...
FOTC
Dear Large-Headed Boy, Thanks for introducing me to Flight of the Conchords. I really love them. They don’t make up for what you did, though. Sorry. Me, age 15
FOTC
Dear Large-Headed Boy, Thanks for introducing me to Flight of the Conchords. I really love them. They don’t make up for what you did, though. Sorry. Me, age 15
A Beautiful Couple
Mr. and Mrs. Potts, You guys are the married teachers. You are the band directors and share a classroom. You have around 400 students. We are all your children. There is a ten year age difference so you guys choose not to have children. She is younger, and you can tell everyday she ‘insta-adopted’ random kids. She wants kids. He looks after me. He wants children too. I am like the...
A Beautiful Couple
Mr. and Mrs. Potts, You guys are the married teachers. You are the band directors and share a classroom. You have around 400 students. We are all your children. There is a ten year age difference so you guys choose not to have children. She is younger, and you can tell everyday she ‘insta-adopted’ random kids. She wants kids. He looks after me. He wants children too. I am like the...
I'm Getting There
Dear Grandma and Grandpa,
Our family misses you both in so many ways. We haven’t done anything as a family since you both have been gone. I wish you both could have been around during my adult years. I wish I could have remembered more of the memories we had together.
I’m sorry for all of the bad things I’ve done to you by stealing money and being a brat. It wasn’t...
I'm Getting There
Dear Grandma and Grandpa,
Our family misses you both in so many ways. We haven’t done anything as a family since you both have been gone. I wish you both could have been around during my adult years. I wish I could have remembered more of the memories we had together.
I’m sorry for all of the bad things I’ve done to you by stealing money and being a brat. It wasn’t...
Q13 Fox →
I had an interview this morning on Q13 Fox news in Seattle! Here is the link to watch!
My Inspiration
Dear Dad,
There are so many things I wish I could and would have said to you. I wish I hadn’t tried to be as strong as you, and shown more emotion. I wish I would have hugged you more often, and accepted what was going to happen instead of fighting the reality of things. I wish I would have sat and watched more movies with you after you couldn’t walk anymore. I wish we could have...
My Inspiration
Dear Dad,
There are so many things I wish I could and would have said to you. I wish I hadn’t tried to be as strong as you, and shown more emotion. I wish I would have hugged you more often, and accepted what was going to happen instead of fighting the reality of things. I wish I would have sat and watched more movies with you after you couldn’t walk anymore. I wish we could have...
Your Superhero
Dear, Mom. I know you tried really hard to be a good mother. It was painful even at the tender age of 8 to watch you put yourself through the things you did. To watch those men beat you time and time again. Those things they did to you were beyond awful. If I was stronger, Mom, I would’ve saved you. I would have done something superhero-like to help you out.
But, after years of it,...