Max-

Mommy is so sorry that I left the room and that daddy went down stairs for a few minutes. I am sorry that we stopped at the old house for a few minutes to go on that dumb vacation. I am so sorry that we didn’t keep hounding the pool company to get the fence in even though we weren’t living there. I am so sorry that you aren’t here with Olivia. She misses you so much. I am so sorry that I wasn’t a good enough mommy. I love you. My heart fills with joy to know that you are in heaven with my mommy and daddy. You have a new little sister, Lily, who has your smile. I love you. I wish we would have gotten to go riding on a horsey when you got bigger, I wish you would have been here to go to school with your twin Olivia, to go to Disney World. It’s so not fair. You are my heart. A part of me is forever gone.

Love,

Mommy, age 44