Daddy,

It’s been five months now since you passed away. I will never forget that day. People say it gets easier with time, but I think it just gets harder and harder. I miss you so much: I miss your laugh, your eyes, your phone calls. I wish I didn’t take you for granted. You were the kindest, most loving person I have ever known in my entire life. I regret fighting with you, doubting you, and not visiting you as much as I should have. I always told myself that I’ll make time for you later, I never knew you’d leave me so soon.

I’ve been dealing with all this pain on my own and I feel like I’m going to break down any day now. I can’t even bring myself to go to your grave because I don’t want to face it. I’m not ready. I hope I’m making you proud, and I hope you know how much I love you.

Love,

Peanut aka Julianna, age 18