Dear M,

Visiting your grave is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life but I understand you not wanting me to see what cancer had done to your body. I miss you everyday. I miss our jokes and the sound of your voice. I have mourned for you since that day in August and I am afraid that I will feel this way until my last breath. I know you loved me, and now it’s easier to say goodbye. I used to watch you as you slept, feeling happy that you could shut down your racing thoughts for a few hours. Now you rest forever and you have no more pain or stress. I just can’t watch you rest now but I know you are at peace.

You are always in my heart.

Yours,
L, age 32