My Love,

Yesterday my heart hurt. A pain I’d never felt. I couldn’t imagine what could be the cause.

You and I haven’t spoken in three years. When we see one another, we look the other way. Avoidance at all costs. We have families to consider. It kind of became “our thing”. 

Now I know…the pain I felt was the moment you left this earth and a piece of my heart broke off and went with you.

I had thoughts of submitting letters on here to you. To say the things I’ve held inside for years, afraid to say out loud. I couldn’t bare to hurt us or them anymore than we already had. But I never thought, not for one second, that I’d have to write them here because you were really gone. Now I’m left with regrets and thoughts of what could have been.

So now I’ll stand with her in the days to come. She and I will forever share the bond of loving you and having you torn from our lives so abruptly. Leaving so much unfinished. So much unsaid.

I loved you then, I love you now, I will love you forever.

Love,
Beautiful, age 40