Hey,

Since we’re here, I guess I’ll tell you a story, about how we first met.

You might not remember this, but the first time I saw you was the first day of school last year. You were a Freshman and were a little new to our school, so you ended up in my 1st period Math class instead of your math class. I looked back behind me as I always do every year to see who was in the class and when I saw you, I thought to myself “Mmm…He’s kinda cute.” But I didn’t think much into it cause I figured you wouldn’t ever feel anything for me.

Little did I know at the time, that was the day I began to fall. Every day from that moment, I fell deeper and deeper in love with you. When I finally brought up enough courage to ask you out, risking almost everything in that one simple yes/no question, I hit rock bottom. To my fear, you had rejected me in the most kindest way possible. Despite having my heart broken and my mind confused, I couldn’t let myself to stop loving you. So, on that day, I promised myself that, though are not mine to fully love, I’ll try anything and everything to make your life any easier than it already was. I don’t want you to feel alone.

You might be thinking, “How is this related to what I’m about to do?”
Well, I can explain.

Right now, you’re standing here, about to do something that not only changes your life but everyone’s lives, because you are feeling alone and as if no one understands you or what you’re going through. But know this: everyone here wants to help you, telling not to do this. But they don’t understand. Because your entire life you always felt that you always did the wrong thing or said the wrong words. Which probably makes you feel no different now when they are telling the same thing again, that you’re doing something wrong.

I’m not like them. I know what it’s like to not have someone understand you, what it feels like not to have someone on your side.

What I’m trying to say that, if you decide to end it all now, I won’t stop you. Instead, I’ll stand right next to you. I’ll take this fall WITH you. To let you know that you have a friend that will go through this with you. So you won’t be alone. Not with this.

So. We can do one of two things. We can do this together…Or not all. Whatever we do, I’ll have your back.

Your one friend that will always love you, age 18