Dear Richi,

Hey my #1 poker babe. How’s it going for you up there? Things for us down here haven’t been so great. Richi, if you are reading this, I just want to say that I’m so sorry. I didn’t really understand what you were going through. I should have been more supportive and caring. If I was ever the cause or if I added on to your grief, I’m so very sorry.

Richi, I wasn’t mad at you when I accused you of calling me out. I knew it wasn’t meant for me but I chose to blow it out of proportion only cuz I wanted attention. I’m sorry I stopped answering your calls and text messages. I’m sorry I cut you out of my life all together over something so childish. I wish I could turn back the hands in time and answer your phone call on Thanksgiving day. 

Everyone tells me that there is nothing I could have done to make you not pull the trigger on yourself but I know I could have said something to stop you from doing it. I know that because only me and you knew what we shared between us. Only we understood each other like no one else ever could. I know that’s is why you called me that night but I didn’t answer and I’m so sorry. Richi, I would have told you how much you really meant to me to us. How much we really cared and love you. How much your family and your daughter needs you. I talked to her the other day she really needs you, babe. We miss u so much, Richi.

FOREVER IN MY THOUGHTS,
RICHI’S GIRL, age 29