Mackenzie,

I know you don’t know me but I’m sure you know my name.  I’m your Dad, James.  I need you to know that I haven’t forgotten about you.  In fact, I think about you ofren.  I love you, although my actions haven’t shown it.  I’m sorry for missing out on so much of your life.  I’ve seen pictures of you and you are so beautiful.  I’ve made so many mistakes in this life of mine.  I’ve taken so much for granted.  I just hope and pray that God lets me look into your eyes again.  I’ve really messed things up; I’m an addict and alcoholic, which means I’m sick.  I’ve made promise after promise that I would change my behaviors and so far they have all been empty.  I’m in treatment right now, trying to get help for my illness and so far, this time, it seems to be helping.  I do still suffer from the pain I’ve caused you and your mother and brothers.  It’s not fair how I’ve treated you.  I want you to know that I haven’t given up on you.  I love you and hope some day you’ll find it in your heart to forgive me.  I truly am sorry and will understand if you can’t forgive me. I will be praying for you always.

Love,
Dad, age 40