You-

Today is January 8th, 2011. Over a year ago on October 24th, October 31st, November 7th, and November 25th 2009, you cheated on me. All with different girls. You had all intentions of hurting me, too. I was just another notch in your belt. Another girl to add to your list. Now, I know it’s different. I know you love me and treat me with the most respect in the world. I have something to admit, though.

Every day, since you’ve been engaged to me, you’ve said I will never trust you. I’ve always said otherwise. I’ve promised you I will soon trust you; that it will come and we will be able to move on and love each other. Truth is, the trust isn’t coming. It’s never coming. I will never get the images of you defying my trust out of my mind. Your past mistakes are always holding me back. I’m sorry. But this will never happen. I wish so badly that I could forgive you, to the extent of forgetting it. But I can’t do that.

-Me