Dear mom and dad,

I’m sorry I went half way across the country just to go to university. It has only been 3 weeks since you left me here all alone in the Provence I have never been to, and I still feel as alone as ever. I thought going all this way would help me find myself, to get away from the one town I’ve spent the last 18 years of my life in, but turns out I’m as lost as ever. I don’t feel like I belong here. 

Music is much harder to study than I expected and I wish I could have chosen a different path….closer to home. I think of you guys everyday and it doesn’t seem to get easier. I have developed a habit of checking when the next flight leaves for Vancouver and deciding weather I should be on that flight. There are still 86 days until I get to come home for Christmas and it couldn’t come faster. 

What if this life wasn’t what I wanted or expected? Can I just pinch myself and be back in my own bed and get ready for my first day of school and hope this was all a dream?

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I miss you and love you so much. I know you are still there for me even though we are so far away from each other and when we see each other in 86 days it will make this time away seem so much easier.

Love you lots.

Your youngest daughter,
Bean, age 18